I made my reddit account particularly for this submit, as a result of I determine that if I am unable to discover my downside on-line then perhaps I can submit it, and hope to god somebody on this planet understands
I have been having these desires, for about six years now. They do not occur each evening, in reality they solely occur a pair instances a yr and I can in all probability nonetheless recall each one I’ve had
I am going to clarify what the desires are in a second, however first I wish to make it clear that this greatest a part of this to me is the precise feeling related to these desires. I’ve a relatively in depth vocabulary, I imply I am not an English graduate or something however I’ve sufficient phrases in my again pocket to normally clarify any feeling or expertise I’ve had fairly exactly. Nonetheless it frustrates me a lot, as a result of irrespective of how a lot I rack my mind I can’t come up an outline for this sense. Possibly heat, perhaps nostalgic however whether it is nostalgic than it is a completely different kind of nostalgia than I’ve ever skilled.
Anyway, there is a couple completely different settings to those desires, I am undecided in the event that they’re related or if I really feel this robust feeling after them for a special cause however I am going to begin with the ‘mill’ desires.
The primary one I had sticks to me essentially the most. I keep in mind I used to be strolling by way of ‘aisles’ of soil, critically it was like somebody lower out rows, only a bit taller than my head to make hallways main by way of the filth. Essentially the most disturbing a part of this primary dream although was that there have been physique elements protruding of the edges of the aisles, with clothes and garments that is appeared to be 1940-50s model.
I’ve tried to attract this a number of instances. I am nonetheless making an attempt to get it proper
I am undecided the precise order of the subsequent desires, however I do know that they don’t seem to be precisely recurring desires, extra like desires the place I get to discover just a little extra every time
To get to the place I do know I gave to undergo a reasonably sparse forest, I feel it is fall, too. Should be an setting I do know. And I’ve to stroll throughout a log crossing a extremely quick river. The log seems like it might be too skinny to carry me on the finish. I by no means keep in mind really strolling as much as the constructing(and rows of our bodies) however it have to be near the river.
Beside the physique dump, there is a damaged down, perhaps burnt constructing with gray rotting blocks on the surface. And it appears extra put collectively on the within
The highest ground is open to the surface, with just a few stone collums holing it up. The ground proper beneath is de facto dusty, with a heat yellow mild in a nonetheless stone room. I’m going down a makeshift ladder despatched to get to a different ground and issues get damp actually fast
The ground beneath is de facto moist, darkish and type of chilly. I really feel like there’s rats operating round someplace and I am unable to actually see various toes in entrance of me. I wander round after which the dream ends
A number of extra desires cross, I discover a number of flooring like this however largely begin to have my different robust feeling desires. I will not clarify a lot about them different that I can keep in mind (and draw out) a avenue in entrance of a forest, in addition to a faculty hallway the place I am looking into once more, a forest.
The final ‘mill’ dream I had, I keep in mind I used to be in what appeared like the underside ground, there was a mud floor and the rooms felt dusty like the primary. I am trying down a type of hallway, with wooden helps holding the filth room up, a small black rectangle on the finish that I feel is my subsequent vacation spot.
I actually cannot clarify these. I am unable to discover a proof on-line, both. I am discovering myself an increasing number of distracted by what might not even be actuality
And the sensation I get after these desires, it has been months and I can nonetheless really feel it prefer it’s yesterday. I’ve nearly satisfied myself these are reminiscences from a previous life or one thing like that
No person understands what that is, folks snigger and say ‘oh I do know’ once I speak about these desires however I haven’t got to phrases to make anybody perceive how I really feel. Possibly somebody on right here will perceive, perhaps not. Possibly I’ve to determine this out myself.